Going around in Circles: Interrogating Librarians’ Spheres of Concern, Influence, and Control

Going around in Circles: Interrogating Librarians’ Spheres of Concern, Influence, and Control

In Brief: The practice placing one’s anxieties into circles of concern, influence, and control can be found in philosophy, psychology, and self-help literature. It is a means of cultivating agency and preventing needless rumination. For librarians, however, it is often at odds with a profession that expects continuous expansion of responsibilities. To reconcile this conflict, it is useful to look back at the original intent of this model, assess the present library landscape through its lens, and imagine a future in which library workers truly feel in control of their vocation.
By
Jordan Moore
Introduction
It is a beautiful experience when you discover something that reorients your entire outlook on life. This happened to me during one of my first therapy sessions after being diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. My therapist gave me a piece of paper and a pencil and instructed me to draw a large circle. Next, they told me to imagine that circle was full of everything I was anxious about, all the real and hypothetical problems that stressed me out. We labeled that circle “concern.” Then, they asked me to draw a much smaller circle in the middle of it. I would say it was one-tenth the size of the first circle. “That” they said, “represents what you can control.”
Figure 1: My first model
I felt disheartened while looking at that picture, as if it spelled out a grave diagnosis. The second circle was already so small, and I could have sworn it was even tinier when I looked back at the page and compared it to the first circle. Then, we began to populate the circle of control with what was in my power to determine – how much sleep I got, how often I reached out to loved ones, how many hours I spent doomscrolling, and so on. Finally, my therapist asked, “How much time do you spend thinking about things in the outer circle?” If I didn’t answer 100%, the number was close. They tapped a finger on the inner circle and, in the way that therapists often phrase advice as a question, asked “What if you concentrated on what is in your control instead?” What if indeed.
That conversation occurred over a decade ago. Since then, I have grown accustomed to categorizing my anxieties into ones of concern or control. If something is weighing on me, but is outside of my circle of control, I do my best not to ruminate on it, or at least redirect my thoughts back to what I, as a single person, can do. I try to devote most of my energy to practices that keep me in good health and good spirits. This has done wonders for my mental health. It has also proven beneficial in my professional life, keeping me focused on the aspects of my job that fulfill me. It has become so integral to my way of thinking that I have even discussed the concept (and the context I learned it from) at work. Naturally, I was at first hesitant to bring “therapy talk” into work. However, it h…